Hiya

After 5 long years of trying for a baby with no success, we have been attending Clane for IUI.  They have been really great. 

But all in theory, IUI sounded easy and pretty straightforward.  But since being starting for the second time, it really is a different story.  When you ar right in the middle of having to inject yourself everyday for some many days etc and then in and out for scans to see how the old follicles are doing ... god its really a pain and just so bloody invasive at times.  I have become so sensitive and hormonal and tired all the time.  We got pregnant on our first go in Oct 06 and then miscarried 7 weeks later.  It was heart breaking as I thought getting pregnant was the hard bit and thought that we were over the hill.  But miscarrying was very hard. 

Now we are starting the cycle again this month.  But last Friday week, we went in to have the procedure and then they told me that I had too many folicles with a high risk of multiple pregnancies, 5-6 that would survive etc. God we were so bloody frustrated. Either one way or the other.  We were told to have unprotected sex .. how mad is that !!  after trying for so long .

Was so frustrated and upset the the whole thing, all the injecting a waste of time... arrhhh.  So am waiting on my period to come and very hormonal and weepy and fed up with it .. Just feel so sad inside that this is happening.  I am nearly 38 and all our friends have kids and we are trying so hard at times to act normal being the smiles but its so hard.  Have tried talking to them but they do not really understand ... bless them and don't know what to say .. I am REALLY alone with this.  Am having the maddest dreams ever reflecting all of this... I know that there is always someone else out there with a worse story than us ... but its the isolation with all of this that is hard.. please can someone else write back to me who is going through this ??

love Issy.. xx